“The battles that count aren’t the ones for gold medals. The struggles within yourself-the invisible, inevitable battles inside all of us-that’s where it’s at.” – Jesse Owens
I have been fearing the unknown for the last few months. Why??? I am so scared to raise my one son. I see the news with so many young men being killed and I find myself crying out. Why am I crying or why does it bother me? I am raising a BLACK SON.
I am a single mother and it is hard for us to raise a boy to be a man. It takes a man to teach a boy to be a man. I try to surround my son with positive male role models and to keep him as active as I can. I give my son my all so that at the end of the day, I do not live with any guilt or shame. I am involved in his academics, I am always talking, preaching, guiding him. I am always crying, hugging and kissing him. What bothers me the most, is that I keep fearing the unknown.
On my way to church today, I was crying out to the Lord when I heard the song ” NO WEAPON FORM AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER.” These last few weeks have been an internal fight as I am dealing with so many challenges in my life. I refuse to let the devil win and give up. I plan to fight these battles with God by my side. So today, the affirmation in church settled my spirit and me living in fear. It is 9/11, the 15 year anniversary of so many lives lost by the Terrorist attack. It is the message I needed to hear about David and Goliath at today’s service. And finally, the song “I am no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God” reminds me God is in control and I should fear not. My son will do just fine with God on his side.
So Aiden, God has your back and just need to stay prayed up. As long as mommy is alive and well, she will do the best she can. Thanks for stopping by and remember to put God first and everything else will fall right into place.